I learnt independence at an early age. I got myself around by walking and catching public transport (as early as 10 years old), and entertained myself in my own worlds of sports and stories.
My two brothers and sister similarly were very independent growing up. Even though we’d come together regularly, we all cherished our alone time.
I’ve found it interesting my two boys are very dependent on others for entertainment and activity. Now that isn’t a bad thing at all. However, I’ve often struggled with their dependence and prided myself on my ability to get things done by myself.
“Many people view dependence as a despicable condition, so they strive to be as self-sufficient as possible.”1
Yep, that’s me. I’ve prided myself on my self-sufficiency.
It reminded me of some other words Sarah Young wrote in “Jesus Calling” :
“In the world, dependence is seen as immaturity. But in My kingdom, dependence on Me is a prime measure of maturity”2
As is so common with matters of God, He turns what the world accepts as reasonable, upside down.
Self-sufficiency has become habitual for me. And that’s a problem. I’ve been grappling writing the follow-up to Angelguard. I’ve got the story, the characters and the general outline. But the words just won’t come out the way I want them to.
So what do I do? I seek to find answers, to solve the problem myself. Do more research, study new writing methods, you name it.
But none of that works.
In Matthew 18:1-4 as Jesus is talking to the disciples He makes this statement:
“Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”
Hmmm, become like children? What attribute of childhood could Jesus be referring to?
Children (especially when very little) need their mums and dads for everything. All the time, everyday. In addition, children:
– are eager to believe (I still remember how distraught I was when I was told Santa Claus wasn’t real),
– possess a readiness to receive, and
– have a willingness to love and be loved.
As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, Jesus didn’t just come to save us but also to be the example by which we should live. He demonstrated how to live like a child:
“The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work.”(John 14:10)
A lifestyle based on being dependent on the Father.
“This is not My way for you! I designed you to need Me continually – and to delight in that neediness.”3
A few years ago, a pastor prophesied over me one of many very well know verses from the Psalms:
“Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart” (Ps 27:4)
Initially I focused on the second half of that verse. Fabulous, I’m going to receive the desires of my heart. Yippee!
Now I’m realizing to step into the prophecy (and write a half-decent manuscript) I need to let go of the desires and start delighting.
No delighting, no receiving desires.
Oh, and about my writing. I’ve recently started meeting with a couple of guys from church who are passionate writers. This opportunity came out of the blue (God does that!) and it’s filled me with such positive refreshment.
What do you do to delight in the Lord? How do you keep yourself in a dependent state? I’d love you to share.
Notes: 1. “Jesus Today” Sarah Young, Thomas Nelson 2012, p 212. 2. “Jesus Calling” Sarah Young, Thomas Nelson 2004, p183. 3. “Jesus Today” p212